Omg... I nvr realise i've nt been blogging like 1 yr? omg.. that's a long time tho.. lol... chinese new year has jus passed. not to forget, my birthday has jus passed too.. its a bad one tho, becoz there's no jaime and meilian and flower... even so... i have jane, leonard n jeremy to eat dinner with me... disappointed thing is christy n eve or others... are nt really involved when i am so involved with something which happens one yr once. alright.. nvm becoz i got new friends... lol

ah soon, shuai dai liao lo.. lend me this rx8. so on the actual day, long, liang, kiong n JJ were out with me ... racing at punggol... even its nt a big thing, its something different. before that day, long n liang was ktving with me.. we jus got very close tho, even they are all guys, i think we are quite gam.

steamboat on jam's birthday, i reminded ppl to wish her happy birthday, but i actually forgotten becoz i have a very bad headache. hai,... sorry jamjam my beloved sister. you are away n yet i treated you in this way... hai~ sorry!!!!!!!!

I thought ppl say ox this yr luck very good? er.... i lose ban luck, lost mj... wa lan eh.. where got lucky leh? knn leh... lol... well... i am going genting soon with long... and leonard, jane , mei on april.. hopefully everyone got very huat.!!! yeah

Ox this yr love also good.. dunno you mei you pian ren de... one jus out of love, another wans me to slim down another 20kg then can consider... lol... so funny... i think lose another 20 kg lim bu will be damn chio liao lo.. buay than... ok dun day dream


alright i think i got a lot of things to blog about but nw no time liao.. need to take care of little walrus.. she is sick... alright next post then i talk about her... mauacks!!!!!!!!!!!

its the last day of chinese new yr.. times passes so fast. I always thought that 2011 will be better for me and i will be more relaxing at work n blahblahblah. feeling terrible today. especially bad today.. things are still not right for me and i dunno wat to do. lost a deal today. makes me feel so fucked up.. soon going to reservist soon n work will be passing back to me... juli is busy with f n b, sometimes still need to spend time with her doing some pricing n thinking on the locations and stuff... kenny's site is finishing but he's adding things here n tere making me feel so busy n fucked up at times. it was syl's bday yesterday. wondering how's she doing though. its really good working as a staff last time, each day will pass n i still have time n spare for family and friends. now? other than enjoying mj every weekend, i dunno wat to do. lawyer called me today,makes me feel so ka neng. listening to his speech , my heart was pumping so quickly... things that i not meant to be said. and i can't share. heavy heart with a heavy mind. the worst thing is that i dun have a person to share this to.. even so, how can they helped? feeling so cold in office... though it will be better after washing my hair n get some massage done.. thinking about de not shun li things make me wanna tear there. n nw.. eyes getting kinda watery.. wat happen.. who can i look for? its a burden... i guess being cheerful eveyday on surface doesn't help, eventually bad things will still go to good ppl n good things will still go to bad ppl. wats the point?

i'm still not to sure why auntie had the courage to jump down from the building with ah mi. did she regret? why doesn't she wanna end her life journey. stress? work? son? i dun wanna think about it. but i am really thinking if this will really end all her misery. if nt why ppl chose this path .. pause...........................................................................................................................................
dunno wat to type nw.. upset but dunno wat to say. leaving this place might help... but where should i go? i really can't put down all my responsiblity on family n work. tears can't really flow out, think i can really recover tat fast to ask myself to be stronger. or i should say do watever things i can do now.. who knows one day......

christmas coming!!!! phew... not ,much different actually but yet... its a kinda celevration.. finally we played mj yesterday.. the feeling is nt tat bad.. its normal.. no feeling at all.. weird.. guess i become a animal without feelings.. think i too da fang le ba.. not angry, not upset.. its jus normal..
mei you gan jue.. whahha... i think i will get to fall in love with girls liao... lol .. or even used to being single.. zhen you ben shi de nu ren ah~ went to far east to view the place... 0115.. nice unit no. later gg centerpoint there n see the unit there.. since we have decided.. then dun think... gan gan go liao... mai tu liao... hehe... hope my friends will give me their moral n FULL support!! i know u guys might nt like indo food.. but bo bian... its wo kai de!!! wahhaha
i am getting more information on other food so that we can open the CASINO theme cafe together.. please save up more money ok!!! love love...

dun understand why are there ppl who are so bo liao? like to say stupid things n spread around... cb... work from day to night.. means company not earning money? says who? so much things jus happened like tat after setting up this business... there r many things i think its so ridiculus.. but.. wat to do.. am i stupid enough to start this when i know there will be a lot of thing coming like tat? er.. wat am i toking... fuck.. guess i really got a lot of things to say.. but.. at this age of 24.. its good to hear from others saying tat u r capable doing this n tat.. so wat.. or am i too ambitious? ok wat~ no meh.. hai. fuck la.. dunno wat to say la~

saw something that i shouldn't be seeing today.. so heart breaking~ they R. O. M le.. quite shocking to see that though, juli says that i am jealous.. why am i thinking about it... yes, i am jealous.. but why can't i be? that the only man i used to love... kanna abandon and get with some good girls.. he's lucky that she treats him well.. n she is lucky becos he treats her well.. I guess i'm jus unlucky..
did not expect that it will effect me though, but somehow it does.. fei hua right.. 4 yrs leh... well. even i am very strong in front of others, i am also human wat~ i feel down at times..
wat so weird about it? dun see the link lo...
phew~ not that i wanna curse them that they will nt get happiness... i will still wan them to have his happiness wat.. but its jus heart breaking la...
never experience this thing before... phew~ still got to accept it.. i guess i'm still strong enough to handle this, on the other hand, was thinking, wat if one day, another person tell me he is attached n wanna get married with someone else? I think.... i better to something to myself now.. whahahhaha

back from hong kong:) woooooo the trip was kinda tiring, been walking n walking n walking, shopping n sight seeing... its was kinda fun though with injek, sergant chow n sergant leonard...
we had a lot of shopping, walking, some drinking n gambling session.. phew.. 7 days was so fast... i would wanna stay longer though..

i got a lot of things to say though, let me type it in again later.. whahaha..