痛苦谁人知。。人生就是有那么多起起落落。平静的时候觉得孤独，吵闹的时候觉得烦躁。在这一年半载，我看透了很多事。悲伤时用工作充实自己，难过的时候会平静思考怎么让自己过得更好。在这断路上，我只能自己靠自己。朋友仍然是在我生边，但。。。对于这件事他们却以为我已经平静下来了。在那一年里，我试着去认识更多人，让自己扩大生活圈子。但是我却发现到在那些“新朋友”当中，只有一些是真正得想要做朋友。止于其他的，他们只想找“性伴侣”。我想“他们”应该也是这样开始的吧。先做爱才当男女朋友。请问这是什么世界啊》！那时候的我应为自暴自弃，做了人生第二错误。

没什么好说的，都已经发生了。直到现在我还是依然活在那种世界里，但是我真的成熟多了。靠这自己的双手，赚钱，自己掌握自己每天的快乐。但在失落的时候还是会。。。。。但我只到什么该什么不该。对现在的男人只有“失望”这俩个字可以形容。

对于他们，我只有妒忌，没有想过要先上祝福，永远不会。！！因为你的抛弃让我变得更坚强，因为你的忍心让我知道在这世上是有忘恩负义的人。也让我只到凡是要靠自己。需要感谢你吗？ 但也因为你，我失去了很多很多。你还有脸回来跟我借钱？太过分了。我不想说了。。。。

Argh.............. have not been blogging again.. so busy at work... hai.. busy but still able to meet up with syl, juan, mei mei carie for some of the days.. but.. for u.... syl? i see u every single day! haha... nothing to do.. but still... our old place is the best place to chill man! song!! eh eh.. i found one si bei funny picture... haha.. lets see..... later.. let me finish...






hahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha so funny la wa lau!!!

our day... nic jus uploaded these pictures from her camera.... so funny.. so sweet... i missed the days... miss the times during new year when we got no work.. no worries.. jus have to enjoy play n have fun... i miss........

I'm so so so tired... so sleepy... work work work.. schedule is getting tider n tider.. wat should i do??? yawn... went for 2 movies this month le... first time watch 2 shows in a week.. wa... buay tahan.... so tired... keep OT ing and bring back things to do... have been in the office at 6am for 2 times this week.. slept only for 1 hr.. for both days.. how to tahan... later.. gt badminton sia... yawn... wat's next... bring it on man... i'm a machine.. lol.. sian.. now is si bei sleepy de lo... hards n limbs are so nuar peh peh... how?? hmmmm

i'm getting darker ... i think i should got n buy the whitening lotion soon... sob.. if not sooner our outings will make me an indian skinned soon~ Oosp... bum into juan yesterday.. actually she claims that she's doing good.. somehow when she reply make me feels that she is jus being defensive with my words... this make me very uncomfortable..drawing a line somehow.. dun feel like meeting her.. but.. i dunno how to tell her that.. so .. i better kept quiet... hope she can do well in her sales n marketing..

michelle jio majong yesterday.. i was so tempted to go.. but its at west coast... whOoOo moreever... already comfirm meeting syl n xiao mei mei n spongebob... so.. i pushed it away.. she's very understanding.. never say anything.. haha.. hope tonight also got lobang.. miss playing majong with u... hee...

Things are getting more concidentally recently.. Mr.ma call me n ask for the bastard's new no. how i know sia.. so long never tok to him le.. then.. next few days... he sms me... for wat?? for $... kanna accident.. need $ to repair the car.. wat the fuck... ask ex gf for $.. wat are ur gf doing.. slacking all the way n let u earn ur money? u idiot.. askher better find a job.. u should start fucking save money n not spending so much... on her.. prada pouch gucci bag... ipod nano.. ya la .. i'm jealous.. becoz when we r together i spend on u instead of u spending of me.. becoz u are jus a army guy.. na bei... dunno how to think ah.. wanna last.. save more moeny n go fucking married... cb.. u think i atm ah.. open mouth ask for $1400...if i was myself half a year ago.. i will ask from all my friends to help u.. but now.. lim bei is bo chap de.. u wan this small amount.. take n go...that day at Pulau ubin.. at the temper.. the sifu.. already said.. guys who look for me is either for $$$$$$ or sex... cb... really cb... then this thing happen... cb... nothing to say leh.. that's y i say.. nowadays.. go where n look for the better ones?? i think i better depend on myself.. cb guys.. now u know ex gf got use ah.. go n think la.. why do i need to care for u when u can leave me there n die myself.. if there's no syl.. no maybel.. u think i can motivate myself.. fuck off.. get the money .. stable le better return me.. dun be like the other 2 guys.. ccb.. making me more du lan..

ah~! @#$%^&*()_!@#$%^&*()_ so angry... nvm... goint badminton later! yeah.... jia u! still got 5 hours to go.. sian!!! go go go go go go go~!!!

Missy darling... i know u are sick.. please take care of yourself while i'm not around.. dun chee hong too much.. please rest after taking the sleepy medicine.. dun tok so much on the phone n chee hong so much ok... please listen to "mummy" haha... see u later syl... please please have more rest. i dun wanna see u so restless later ah~ if not.. u'll know.....

sian~ wat's new.. i'm still in the office sia... sian.. rushing work now.. waiting for my things to render.. think i 'm going to stay till very late le lo.. sob.. again.. having a headache...
Finally we go n sign up of the driving course.. wat's new.. until now??? 22 le still got no fucking license... sian.. wat a joke.. hehe... anyway.. we are still very happy to get our license together.. if fail.. she shall wait for me.. right... syl?? dun break it ah.. dun care!!!!

yawn... er... i dunno wat to say le... never really go n take pictures anymore.. sian.. OOooO oh ya.. we went to the it mall that day.. and she!!!!! brought this professional camera for 1385 bucks... whoOooooooOoOOoOooooooOO happening ba.. make sure u take more pictures for me n xiao mei mei ok... hahaha.. yeah... planning to go ubin.. but.. it has been raining n raining.. how to go... u ask me n i ask who?? i also dunno... ok... siam~

went for a movie and syl n angel yesterday night.. watch le JUNO.. its a nice show actually... showing how brave the girl was to give birth to her own baby even when she is only 16.. at least she did knew that the "thing " inside her stomach was a life and only the one above can control their birth... OTHERS?? i think.. dun really fucking care... jus wanna get rid of the burden... especially... OooPS.. better dun say .. later ppl i ... R..........a... haha... sorry ah~ not saying anything..

very bored at work again.. but still schedule is going on smoothly... yawn... RokOkO.. the game... so funny... majiam wanna drive with the psp like that lo.. damn cute n funny la.. buay tahan de lo.. whahahaha... later going to my aunt's house... enjoy..~~ whOoOoOoOOoOOooOooOooO

michelle ke ai... please take care of urself... yi lu shun fong~ miss ya~~~
Happy birthday to u my sweet heart yvonne...
and to all ladies... : san ba fu nu jie kuai le~

i can't believe that i'm tearing in the office now.. stupid kpo ... go n read ppl blog.. gei kan.. kan ni na bu chao chee bye.. stupid idoit.. stupid... sob.. other than crying... i dunno how to express myself le... i've not been so sad for so long.. n it came back to me.. even nu leave me i also never cry.. why? why i go n recall all these things that ... he... wat have i done... its so difficult for me... so difficult... to forget.. to throw everything behind............. indeed.. u fuckers r right... the teapot is sexy.. VomiT*** that's y...........i hate u.. hate me.. hate god...

where are u syl.... sob.. i need a shoulder..............................................................................................................................................

Oh maN~~~.. its a long day man... sob.. working n working.. i heard from my sister that my parents are quarreling in the room... wat happen ah? i also dunno leh.. then she said that.. mmmy is crying then like.. kping.. then ai ya i dunno la.. i Never ever hear from my daddy will use violent wan lo... say le i also won't believe de lo... ai ya.. dun say le. i also dunno...

work is drivin me crazy.. i'm forcing myself now lo.. dun feel like working.. wanna really rest n slack... how? quit my job? siao~ lol... hai.. see how lo... end of the month then decided la... i'm jus working for the money$$$ and of course.. er.. i dunno.... hai~ back to work le.. sob...