Life is in a mess now... maybe not life, its my mind.. i dunno wat the fuck am i doing recently.. i think its one of the symthom and a side effect of my previous relationship... i become so shui bian.. where is the pure n thoughtful me.. i dunno man... i dun feel happy these days.. wat happen to me.. i dunno wat is a fling until i know A. he 's a very gentle and nice person i think i've ever met. i like toking to him .. but before i know him i know J. he's a very horny person.. and sometimes i hate going out with him toking about things i dun like to hear. hai.. and i can stupidly go and meet him n listen to him.. some more its not only once.. its twice.. hai.. u can't imagine wat have he done to me... the worst is , in the end i found out that he's a police man!!! can u imagine.. wat the fuck.. how can u do these can say "police man is also a guy" so... big ah.. now i KAN BIAN police man liao lo..
Until i met A.. the first time i saw him already got a good impression becoz i know he;s my type of person. So i dun mind going out to meet him and everthing. Meeting him is good ans we can tok about all sort of things..i think i sort of like him.. but things did not come out so fine that day.. after that.. like... oh man.. and then come S. EEEEEEEEEEEEK! wa lau.. i cannot imagine i can tahan looking at his face sia.. buay tahan... but i tried not too look.. that'y i can afford to tok to him.. if not i think i can die..
after this while.. i think i'm actually not happy at all.. i'm jus lying to myself by having all these weird people being with me.. I miss myself..
oh man... i tender my resignation today.. it's so scary la.. i'm not sure ifi have did the right thing but.. my decisions are made..anyway Alvin is really a good boss and a good friend.. hmm.. But at times he really pissed us.. really.... i understand that people do get frustrated when they are busy or angry even when they are too screwed up by something else.. but... hmmm attitude is very important lo.... hai i dunno wat to say but after working in this company i dun feel that happy as working in the previous wan.. there's some problems la.. i dun smilt that much anymore.. i dunno if its that "fucker" who make me feel so or... basically working in kong's office is not very stressful.. but i think is that everyone in the office dun really smile.. but i'm really that kind of Hahahahaha person.. so i propable cannot stand the environment there. Well, but at least the good thing is i still have bao bao who is always there for me. There's no problem for us working together. now we are going to leave each other i think its a bit sad for us. sob.. hehe.. love baby..
oh man... how ah... hai.. i'm in a very big confusion now.. hai.. life ah life ah.. y like that.. its very difficult to open up myself to tell A that i wanna... but i wanted to not only i'm not happy working now u knoe.. its about the check up as well.. i was afraid tat he will say that it is an excuse.. wat should i do... how how.. hai i dunno sia.. sob.. i'm so luan... should i go may there or go back toy'r'us first to relax a while before i seek for a better job? wat should i do..
wa lau eh.. I'm fucking angry yesterday la.. ccb.. That fucking ex keep sms me.. wat the fuck .. wat do u wan from me.. can u jus leave me alone n let me continue my life u fucker.. Fuck off.. You no need to add me anywhere becoz i'm not going to accept anything.. and u this fucking liar that... dun let me catch u and her walking on the street u cb. I won't do stupid things so u fucking assume that i will.. wat's the big deal posting a angry post on the friendster blog.. u scare izzit... if you think i do this to let ur gf then u are fucking crazy.. u think i got a lot of time to do that right. If i got much time i, and i really wanted to look for trouble i will call her out and tok to her. dun fucking tell me wat to do becoz u dun fit! dun make me du lan.. i will do anything u fucker lionel
Oh yeah man.. i change the outlook of my new blog sia.. hmmm... recentlt quite free already.. u knOw y??? and u know y? no bf le ma... hehe then can write blog everyday!!! oOoOoOo i went clubbing on wed with mei juan and xiang mei . we met up at Zouk.. u know i work till 1 plus that day oh my! so ridiculus lo.. wat the fuck..hai.. but anyway i did enjoy in future that day. It was fun.. a bit tired though....
Today!!! bao n kong are not around! haha and i'm alone with my little merry . so cute... hmmm wat should i buy for my bao bao.... hmmm i also dunno sia... yawn.. being alone in the office is a very bored thing sia.. hmm .. anyway, yesterday was a happy day.. tan n syl has made me a pillow with my name and all the things that, that group of friends usually do.. i felt that was very very sweet and cool!!! so nice.. later i'll upload the picture for u to see... hmmmmm i love it man.. They did the pillow and stuffs is to remind me that i still have them no matter wat happens.. lastly .. let me stay happy always then thinking of that fucker.
