Life is in a mess now... maybe not life, its my mind.. i dunno wat the fuck am i doing recently.. i think its one of the symthom and a side effect of my previous relationship... i become so shui bian.. where is the pure n thoughtful me.. i dunno man... i dun feel happy these days.. wat happen to me.. i dunno wat is a fling until i know A. he 's a very gentle and nice person i think i've ever met. i like toking to him .. but before i know him i know J. he's a very horny person.. and sometimes i hate going out with him toking about things i dun like to hear. hai.. and i can stupidly go and meet him n listen to him.. some more its not only once.. its twice.. hai.. u can't imagine wat have he done to me... the worst is , in the end i found out that he's a police man!!! can u imagine.. wat the fuck.. how can u do these can say "police man is also a guy" so... big ah.. now i KAN BIAN police man liao lo..

Until i met A.. the first time i saw him already got a good impression becoz i know he;s my type of person. So i dun mind going out to meet him and everthing. Meeting him is good ans we can tok about all sort of things..i think i sort of like him.. but things did not come out so fine that day.. after that.. like... oh man.. and then come S. EEEEEEEEEEEEK! wa lau.. i cannot imagine i can tahan looking at his face sia.. buay tahan... but i tried not too look.. that'y i can afford to tok to him.. if not i think i can die..

after this while.. i think i'm actually not happy at all.. i'm jus lying to myself by having all these weird people being with me.. I miss myself..